As mentioned previously, I finished a steroid cycle some weeks ago and I just want to make a small blog post on my experiences.
Originally I started taking testosterone ( 500mg 1x injection per week, rotating quads and glutes ) to help with my depression. Another reason I started testosterone is also because I badly wanted to try Anavar which was reported to be especially good at reducing subcutaneous belly fat. I couldnt run the Anavar alone you see, because it would result in shutdown of testicular production of testosterone.
Anyway, after spending sometime researching the whole subject ( which was really fascinating ) I decided to get over my needle anxiety and start a cycle. Im no bodybuilder, I wasnt looking to gain huge amounts of muscle, just to deal with my depression and re-composition my body a bit. The first thing I would say is that the injections themselves are relatively painless. I used a 25gauge needle, and apart from the awkwardness of injecting into your own bum it was much easier than I thought. There can be some after pain, referred to as *pip* ( post injection pain ). I did get this on my first few shots, but as my skill injecting improved so did the pip. One tip is not to let the needle wiggle around when its in the muscle.
It took about 2 weeks before I started to notice changes in musculature and strength, however I noticed psychological changes within 48 hours. Suddenly I was EXTREMELY confident, much more assertive than I normally am, and would hold eye contact much more during conversations. Contrary to poplar belief, I did not experience any change in aggressiveness. One thing that testosterone clearly does is greatly increase your belief in yourself. Libido also increased. and my forehead and chest got extremely greasy.
Luckily I experienced only a very mild increase in acne, some people apparently really breakout badly with acne with high androgens. 6 weeks into the cycle I had gained only small amounts of muscle, my belly fat had gone down quite a bit which I was happy with ( thanks Anavar ), and my strength was up ALOT. But by far the best improvements were the psychological ones, the feeling of well-being was euphoric. Steroids make you feel like you can do *anything*.
At this point I made a big mistake and added Trenbolone. I dont know why, probably because I was still desperate to drop bodyfat plus so far I had experienced almost no negative side-effects from the testosterone and anavar. Trenbolone is notorious for its side-effects and I can say that is very true. I noticed immediately upon adding the Tren that I become short-tempered ( very unlike me ), but by far the worst thing was the insomnia, I was sleeping 3 hours per night and it was completely ruining me. One thing I noticed, which might be placebo, was that people seemed to be acting in a naturally more supplicating/timid way towards me while I was on the tren. I stopped going to the gym due to being completely fatigued all the time. And I was sweating badly constantly. I had to wait several weeks for it to clear form my system due to the long ester version.
After that, I increased the testosterone dosage to 750mg per week, then a few weeks later ended the cycle. I used HCG throughout cycle to avoid testicular atrophy. It is commonly advised to use an aromatase inhibitor during cycle to combat estrogen and gyno, HOWEVER I believe this is because most people running steroids are also running highly insulinogenic diets that promote hyperinsulinemia, and insulin is a strong activator of the aromatase enzyme. I spent alot of money on aromasin and found it to be a COMPLETE waste, because not once did I ever experience signs of high estrogen. ( I was still lowcarb during the cycle ). Infact the few times I did try taking the aromasin I immediately experienced signs of LOW estrogen, such as achy joints/spine and complete loss of libido.
Well, I am now 2 months since the end of my cycle, Ive lost pretty much all the muscle I had gained ( mostly because I stopped going to the gym ). however I do seem to have retained some of the strength gains. Yes, im going to run steroids again in the future, However I will stick to just testosterone, anavar, and dianabol. IF theres one thing I learnt its to keep side-effects to an absolute minimum.
I think the stigmatization surrounding steroids is completely overblown, sure they are open to abuse just like any drug. I find this especially amusing since just about EVERYONE in the sports and fitness industry is on steroids. ALL Olympic athletes are on these compounds, as most probably 99% of sports stars are. Even movie actors are taking these things in high doses just to look good for movies. ( Thor, Bane, etc ).
Personally I predict a massive explosion of steroid use in the future, especially as we learn to control the negative side effects of them. People dont want to be just average, they want to be GREAT.
P.S. sorry for the dark tone this blog is taking, but I have warned people previously that this is my personal space.